"Think of her as living in the hearts of those she touched,
for nothing loved is ever lost,
and she was loved so much!"
today was the two year anniversary of death of my baby girl. my cousin chantal. Jesus called her home after a 2 year battle with cancer. It was probably one of the hardest times of my life. the depression i feel into was horrible, and i was drowning in my own grief. one of those situations that you have to reach up to touch rock bottom. and even though i still don't know why he had to take her away and not heal here, but i do know that God's ways our not ours and I may never understand this.
through my cousins i have met one of my best friends, kayleen jones! she seriously has become an amazing. last weekend she got married, and i was blessed enough to get to go.
the wedding was perfect. seriously like something out of a fairytale. the greatest part of the whole night was getting to dance with kayleen. it was a very intimate moment and it is one of my fondest memories. i know that chantal watched from heavens gates as her best friend married the man of her dreams. and as hard as it is not to have her here we both know she wouldn't want to come back to this crummy world.
God is a good God and i know that the things he will do with chantal's legacy will be epic. ready to see what he has in store. for now i will wake and walk with her memory in my heart and do everything for the both of us...like graduate college.
miss you baby girl more than words can say!
for nothing loved is ever lost,
and she was loved so much!"
today was the two year anniversary of death of my baby girl. my cousin chantal. Jesus called her home after a 2 year battle with cancer. It was probably one of the hardest times of my life. the depression i feel into was horrible, and i was drowning in my own grief. one of those situations that you have to reach up to touch rock bottom. and even though i still don't know why he had to take her away and not heal here, but i do know that God's ways our not ours and I may never understand this.
through my cousins i have met one of my best friends, kayleen jones! she seriously has become an amazing. last weekend she got married, and i was blessed enough to get to go.
the wedding was perfect. seriously like something out of a fairytale. the greatest part of the whole night was getting to dance with kayleen. it was a very intimate moment and it is one of my fondest memories. i know that chantal watched from heavens gates as her best friend married the man of her dreams. and as hard as it is not to have her here we both know she wouldn't want to come back to this crummy world.
God is a good God and i know that the things he will do with chantal's legacy will be epic. ready to see what he has in store. for now i will wake and walk with her memory in my heart and do everything for the both of us...like graduate college.
miss you baby girl more than words can say!
ugh...i wrote a comment and then there was a mess up thing. anyways...i said something along the lines of:
ReplyDeletei didn't know you had a blog and i am now a follower. i love your entries! very inspirational. and because i am currently so hormonal, a couple entries made me cry. but i am very happy with how God is raising you and using you! love you!